Goals?

I used to have far-fetched goals in the past. Goals that were too difficult to reach. But at least I am glad I had them. Always something to (unrealistically) look forward to. I started to let go of the goals over the years. (It took time to get over these goals.) Sometimes you have to let go. But the goals are still there in the back of my head. 

No! It is not to become a famous actress! 

(You are such a bad liar, Mali! Of course it is your goal!😂) 

I had goals. I had dreams.

"Strategy" was WAAY up there. Why? Too lazy to even get to the strategy. Too lazy to stop eating cake, junkfood and sitting on my butt all day. But I had like four goals as you can see in this photo, but it didn`t go that well. I had NO STRATEGY! And I was supposed to be at my psychical PEAK IN LIFE! But Burger King across the street from where I lived at the time made things difficult.😱 And I woke up late to binge watch The Bachelor. Don`t do that if you want to get somewhere in life! (They divorce anyway. Or are gay. (Not transexual just YET but that day will come. I have watched many seasons. Trust me! NOT worth your time!)

How can you have any goals in life if you constantly go around thinking; do I have any skills at all? If you were constantly being told that you lack skills. By "military mentality". Not going to go into details about that. I grew up believing I had no skills (unoconsciously, obviously) due to no support from people around me. So, what did I feel that I had at the age of ignorance? (When I still didn`t realize my own potential) With a microphone borrowed by a high tech friend in one hand and trying to make music with the other hand on a Roland keyboard. The only option that sounded like "music" was the demotune. So, I played that one over and over again. My family told me to stop, so I kind of did. Until I started again behind closed doors. I ended up with nothing, really. I realized that I had no REAL skill that people were looking for. I liked to write. I have a nice handwriting. THAT could take me somewhere, right? Even I can see that. (Evidence: Photo above.) The level of self esteem was pretty low. It was nonexistent. I was told that you can`t say you are something in life without the right evidence. Evidence is always the hardest part.

To get somewhere in life you need a goal. Some people don`t even have that. Something to look forward to. To have a goal is a goal in itself. 

 

Real life VS unrealistic goals. When it sounds like a good idea in theory but probably isn`t a good idea
in real life.

  

Thank you for being a tourist passing through Mali`s Universe. Thank you for being a witness of all the stories going on inside my mind, simultaneously.