24 June 2018

Published June 24, 2018 by

How to feel loved / Me and my portable circus



How to feel loved no matter what


Welcome to my life! I am a 35 year old nerdy girl from a small town in Norway. But right now it`s still "acceptable" to be this weirdo - on almost every video that I make. I can still pass for being younger. Just wait until I`m 60. (I`m gonna pass for being like 37,5 years YOUNG but that`s a whole different topic...) I`m just going to be timeless! Ain`t nobody gonna hold me back! Not even the elderly homes (By the way, I am never going to be in an elderly home because I will be living somewhere really warm, where these things almost don`t exist.) But IF life doesn`t turn out the way I want it to (which is not going to happen either! H***l to the no!( hell no!) But hypothetically speaking; I am going to make you lose your freaking minds over there! Don`t you worry about that; Want to give me a pill to calm down? I am going to open your mouth and empty that glass bottle of pills in your mouths wide open. It is gonna be hell for you. (By the way: My synthesizer skills are going to make you lose your freaking minds, so I don`t think you will last very long (in that job.) But no matter where I will be living my synthesizer AND karaoke skills are going to make you crazy. I am just violently going to remove the microphones away from everybody`s hands and say "Why the hell are you singing "It`s raining men"? Because ain`t no men gonna rain on you, woman! Or man! (I saw some gay men in the audience tonight!) Because I`m now 80 years YOUNG, honey child, and the MEN are gonna rain on ME! Hell yeah! Been waiting too long!". I am going to hang out with all kinds of people. Because I love all kinds of people. And all kinds of people love me. It is going to be like a circus or a freak show. I joke with everybody and everything and for some weird reason they like it. How to get along with everyone, no matter who they are? Just be this weird, freaky, nerdy awesome maniac for the rest of your life. It`s a very attractive, actually. As long as you`re not a bad person. That is not attractive at all. People just can`t take their eyes off of you if you`re this all-loving person. Okay, to violently remove somebody`s microphone while they`re struggling to hit that "high" is probably not a good idea. (But it looks good on video.) Okay, just don`t do that if it is not meant to be a joke, and you should be very good friends too. I know how it`s like when people are acting around you like "you can`t sing".

Be the funny, weird person that you are! (If that is who you are.) People get this weird unconscious obsession about you, even though they don´t really think they like you, they just can`t deny the fact that you`re everywhere, moving through every non-psychical space - even theirs. ( I hope I understood what I just channeled now, by the universe. Sometimes it just happens so fast.) People turn out to be fans instead of haters. Some of them. But in the end ; YOU don´t care about what they feel about you because you don`t let any bad comments affect you anyway. It is just a win-win situation for you if you get along with everyone. (If you have an issues with someone (or they have an issue with you) Just walk away! Let the past be the past and move on to better and greater things in life. Change the way people see you; "Oh I hate this person! (I have heard a lot about this person.) But even though I showed this person that I hate them, they show NO signs of disliking me at all!" With this mentality you don`t create a reason for them to dislike you and they feel stupid. "Why did I even think like that?" But sometimes a person is just a loser. And they have decided to be a hater no matter how nice you treat them. It happens. Just do not become affected by how big of a loser they are. I personally try to walk around with a constant feeling that "They all love me. There`s no reason for it to be any other way". And I have a few reasons to be upset sometimes. We all have. But I try to think like this. In this positive way. When you create this so-called illusion around you ( a good kind of illusion. Probably the wrong word to use. I`m going to find another word; Visualizing.Visual thinking. It`s not real just YET. But it will happen!) "Everybody just LOVES me, even if it`s for no reason and you only experience hate; "They just adore me! I`m one of a kind. Unique!". Just build it up around you. This is an energy that I want you to start to work with! "Illusions" are so much more real than you think. (The invisible powers of the universe.) By the way, illusion was not the right word here. It is a negatively charged word. (Even though I do believe we live in a matrix, but that`s another topic. I do not think that I am ready to reveal my thoughts on what kind of world we are living in just yet.) I am a channeler, but at the same time a deep thinker and don`t always understand at first what I am "receiving". Because I kinda get the messages in pictures. It feels like a huge delivery. Hopefully it is not spam, lol. What I am trying to say is; imagine that you are loved by everyone and you will attract love from every angle. Because you will become blind and deaf to negative people and negative energies. It doesn`t resonate with your frequency anymore. Even though you were a negative person in the past, just by changing your mindset, you will attract positivity. You can rewrite your own history. This is how you survive in this place called earth. It is called The Law Of Attraction. You attract what you are and what you need. Things are easier than you think, and they do solve themselves on it`s own timing. So I just want you to relax. Let go of every fear. Surrender! I personally believe that TODAY is a great day to start.

And when in doubt, just marry yourself!...


And you thought that this was it? No honey child, I have a lot more to say and the headlines are getting better...

Me and my portable circus / I am The Empress


Now, let me talk about what is happening now. (I have the ability to make things happen when it seems like nothing happens. And it actually doesn`t, but I am creative so I don`t care. I create my reality.) I have to create. It does not matter how weird or crazy it is. I just have to CREATE! If I don`t do it I go into a depression. And I am NOT a depressed person- NOT AT ALL! I am actually very energetic when I do the things that I love to do. Then I am a lightening ride! Just an example: Yesterday I went to my local music store in the small town that I live in. A store for instruments and music production on a high level. (I was looking for some new headphones which I ended up buying in another store) and had an hour long conversation with another customer about music production.
It was a PASSIONATE discussion! He said: "It`s so wonderful to listen to someone who is talking about what they´re passionate about!" It kinda hit me right there and then; I am MORE passionate about music than I first thought that I was. Since I have three life purposes it is very hard to choose between them. (And I am going to talk about these three life purposes eventually.) I am all over the place. I just sometimes think for myself "I just know too much!?" I am not trying to brag to you, guys, but I just love information. I am a freaking sponge. I just absorb the information like the sponge absorbs water. The information wants to be delivered and that`s how it is. I cannot explain it. People like that, like us, whoever we are, we either become freaking geniuses (like Einstein, Mozart, Tesla. ANDY WARHOL! Oh yeah, they should have run some tests on him!) They were all pretty weird (and would probably have been diagnosed with autism today. MAYBE!) OR we become nothing at all. The stuck-in-the-between feeling is very confusing. I am not diagnosed with Aspergers (milder version of Autism which they completely removed a few years ago.) But I have a pretty high score on it. (They ran tests honey, oh yes they did, because yours truly wanted it. It was kinda hard to cope in today`s society for a while) but I am too emotional to be diagnosed with it. Just TOO emotional. And they tend to struggle with emotions.

BUT! With my so-called ADHD I have now sidetracked myself again. Okay, I was in the store and...

I was talking and talking with this musician. The time flies when you KNOW WHAT YOU`RE TALKING ABOUT (lol! Okay, I`m not gonna yell!) and everybody else just stare at you: "She knows what`s shes`s talking about! She plays in a band?" People may think that you play in a band or something like that if you talk about making music. (No, I don`t!) The day I play in a band is the day when...This is how that would happen: The name of the band would have to be "The Mali Show". Band members would have to wear t-shirts with my logo on it. On a daily basis. And spread the word about Mali. This kinda reminds me of the way they tried to spread the word about Jesus. Oh, Jesus Christ! It would be just too much for me to handle. Because in the end it would not just be me. And I am a one-woman-show. Because I would not feel completely free. I would freak out in a middle of a concert. I would knock my other band members in the head with a guitar! I would rip it off their shoulders and knock them with it; "You did not play it right! It didn`t sound like Nightwish mixed with Marilyn Manson at all! That`s the sound that I am looking for! I am The Empress!!"(which is a Tarot card, but I don`t care. I like that word. It could be a good band name if it`s not already taken.) "The music you`re playing does not sound like I am THE EMPRESS at all! I am not impressed!"(I am imprisoned, that`s what I am!.) The truth is; I am a nerd, like I have said 100 times already. And you`re right; "Oh my God! She`s weird! So nerdy for a girl!". That is the judgement going on in today`s society. There`s nothing wrong in being a nerd. People around here are like "I`m glad I`m out of here before she comes walking towards me - and talks to me - because I don`t know NOTHING! I came here to buy a piano for my daughter!" Okay, that sounded kinda weird. It sounds like a walk up to people and talk to them. No, I don`t. This guy was a foreigner and decided to just stop me. I was looking at headphones and was minding my own business. I looked up and I heard a voice saying "Do you play the guitar?" ("Hell no!" I was thinking to myself) "I sing. I am a vocalist and have my own home studio!" BANG! just like that. You make a connection. Not a love connection, but meeting people with similar interests. Very important in life! Although we will never talk again he made me realize that I love music. I suppressed it for many years because you have to give a lot of yourself. And I just was not ready. A non-foreigner would have never approached me. People are kind of distant in my home town. Or in any small town. I don`t want to judge. (Although I am the judge and the jury in my life. It`s just the way it is.) And that is also why I have chosen NOT to walk around my city with my mobile / portable circus. Creative and eccentric as I am. "Welcome to the circus! Here we have Mali and her universe!" *Weird introduction music*. I play an ugly high pitched sound on the synthesizer*. A sound that auto tune would never be able to handle. Even though I told the musician / customer in the store that "Audio tune fixes everything!" I don`t use it. But most of the participants on the Norwegian Idol have to use it. It is just the way it is. They can`t hit that "high" like a desperate, hungry cat and still sound good.

(And you can, Mali? REALLY? YASS honey! YASS!!! H**LL YEAH!)

By the way, you guys; Was this story unfolding itself ONLY inside MY mind?...Okay, I get it! Maybe it is time to move on.

I thought that I was going to become more serious this year but...NOT TODAY! (I have been enough serious. I have been talking about how to love yourself and survive in society. You just gotta learn the basics! (That`s why you came here, lol.) And you have learned so much, I just feel it.


Here are my crazy photos from my Facebook live streams. If you can`t handle the real me then I just don`t understand why you`re here!...







And here is the video:


I just want to say that my blog posts are usually long and if you love to read weird blog posts then you have come to the right place. And a lot is going on at the same time. I just want you to know that this is my blogging style. Blame it on ADHD? Do you know what? I don`t think that we should. Some people are just weird and crazy entertainers! (But a lot of these people do have ADHD; Jim Carrey has it! I guess we just have a lot of energy.) See you again soon! ;-)

Thank you for being a tourist passing through Mali`s Universe. Thank you for being a witness of all the stories going on inside my mind. Simultaneously! ;-)

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17 June 2018

Published June 17, 2018 by

I used to have a doll obsession...



"I am not easily impressed". Yes, it is true. By people and environments.
So, whenever I felt like I could not do stuff and be whatever I wanted to be, dolls could...



I was obsessed with dolls because dolls have more fun. Because they never have a doll moment, 
I guess. I made these many, many years ago. My favorite dolls were Blythe dolls...



This is actually a space traveler. He comes from the star system of The Pleiades.
Madonna and Kate were actually kinda impressed by me that day.
Being a walking Vogue - magazine was something they had never tried before.
Local stuff. Let`s  move on! They tried to capture me in those frames but I left the building. To be framed
is a trap. You can never escape again. You can`t catch (up with) me!



"Don`t touch me!" I cut my own hair. It is the truth. Once a hair-cutter, never going back to that chair ever again. 





Sometimes I have believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast? SOMETIMES???

Great quote...
Photo: thethingswesay.com


Thank you for being a tourist passing through Mali`s Universe. Thank you for being a witness of all the stories going on inside my mind. Simultaneously! ;-)

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16 June 2018

Published June 16, 2018 by

New category on the blog: Mali loves...


Mali loves...just another category on my blog...and maybe a little rant about what I hate...because there`s a fine line between love and hate.
I LOVE cheetah! And I LOVE weird designs. But I HATE when I don`t finish a photo.
And I never do. This was supposed to be a header. The jacket was NOT supposed to be a part of the header! (OMG!)

Instagram - selfie by me, re-edited in Photoshop. I LOVE cameras and when the look is kinda psychedelic.


So, let me start. Mali loves...


- Vlogging and camera gear. Things to create things WITH! I love effects! Old photo and video effects mixed with futuristic, sometimes psychedelic effects. A hot mess between the 90`s VHS effects and the old 8MM effects. I like the old combined with the new. I love the 70`s era. Janis Joplin saying "It was groovy, man!" I can agree with that, honey. It was groovy. The music was groovy and they did not care..."Does not care"  - could be three beautiful words that sum up my life. BUT!
It is not the truth actually. Because that is superficiality. I care about the things that are most important to me.
 1. My favorite people (Family first! And my iMac....okay, so it is not a person...okay...(okay, God then, because somebody created this AWESOME person that I`m looking at in the mirror every single day.)
 2. Because I wouldn`t be able to  CREATE  if it wasn`t for me showing up every single day
doing what I love, and having my favorite people in my life, and knowing they are okey.


Cake is cake


Yes, this kind of reminds me of an award speech. Maybe it is. (I would say the craziest things, and I`m not even drunk, honey.) Saying crazy things are who we are - in my family. We probably have soul ties to the most famous comedians in the world. So maybe I will receive an award for SOMETHING that I will do in the future. You can manifest the wildest things just by thinking about them. (Thinking about the things that you want to happen in your life ("The Law Of Attraction"), not thinking about them (your family. That`s not what I meant. They don`t always want you to go anywhere...LITERALLY...anywhere in life. Just a few yards and then they demand that you come back for cake (Norwegian cake, can be a great experience, I am not going to judge here. Cake is cake, honey!) and a cup of coffee. Do we have time for this manifestation? I don`t know. It depends on the quality of the conversation we`re having. (And the cake.) Sometimes it is awesome! I once made my mama film me with a handheld camera. (Obviously it was handheld. It was an old handy cam. She needed instructions, and obviously the only instruction you need is "REC". That red button! Then it is show time!) We were singing and having a good time. It was almost like The Euro Vision Song Contest, where I could shine and be the star that I have felt that I have been for so many years. (Ain`t nobody gonna take my light away from me!) But sometimes they change their minds. Where I`m from they tell it like it is. They tell you that you are from The South (Troendelag in Norway. But being from this area don`t define me!) And they tell you that everything that you do is a waste of time "Stop dreaming and get a real job!" while knitting on a pair of socks that they will give away to the salvation army. It felt like someone just stole the cake away from me. But I always snap back (Very important in a situation like this.) "I save the world my way, with style!" While chewing on my last piece of cake. (Chewing on the cake...that cake must be STIFF and dry with other words.)"Mama! stop knitting on your old wool socks and start designing a gown for me instead! Like ASAP! I am so inspired by Meghan Markle right now! Or was her name Marie Antoinette?!"
So if I am going to an award show in the future I know what I`m gonna wear! 

So what have you learned here? Yes, that`s right; Mali loves the camera and Mali loves cake.
The article "Mali loves..." continues below this photo of Janis Joplin, an artist Mali also loves.

Photo: You can never say "Found it on Google" How unprofessional! I found this by TYPING "Janis Joplin" ON Google.
There`s huge difference there. I dislike it 100% whenever I see a blogger saying it was "found on Google" among the other things you find on Google. That`s what we do on Google! Finding things and information. Google is NOT the artist! If you MUST KNOW; Google is owned by The Illuminati! (Okay, let me calm down here with this sip of coffee.) The photograph is by: Barry Feinstein. Another blog published it and I took it from them; discogs.com.


A mix between... / I hate Microsoft!


I love California beach vibes; like Marilyn Monroe on the beach in an old 40`s swimming suit.
I also feel that I share the life purpose and life path with these two women (Janis and Marilyn...you can also add a little bit of Marilyn Manson because I do have a wild side!), I could be their eccentric, freaky twin/half sister. I am a hot mess - mixture (a hybride?!) between Janis Joplin and Marilyn Monroe. Just add a little bit of Andy Warhol`s energy. But I am a NERD! So we need to add a little bit of Bill Gate`s operative system (NO! I din`t mean that! We don`t want that! *Error sound* I mean Steve Jobs because I HATE Microsoft, I freakin` HATE Microsoft, useless piece of sh*t!) You can`t edit a video or a music track. The computer shuts down due to all the viruses. (I used to buy them in the early 2000`s. (Not the viruses , the computers. Trust me: You can buy a virus now! And give it to a friend.) It is just a-very-bad-system! I am almost knocking my head in the table right now just by thinking about it. I also feel that I am a computer (so I have a lot to say here! This is my field!.) By the way; the word "computer" is a very bad word. Now, let me call it "device". Oh! Feels a lot better. (The relief..honey...) A device on over-load sometimes, but we all are comput...devices in the end (our brain is a hard drive.) Recently (the past few years (!!) Wow, how the time flies!) I have felt like an old Windows version. Everything has been going slow. Just like Windows 95, but I will be BACK! I will be back to GET MY LIFE! And I`m not looking back on the year 1995. I was even a hotter mess than I am right now. (Mainly because I used to cut my own hair, which I still do to this day, but I KNOW how to cut my own hair now!) Since 95 everything got better, eventually, because this is the year when the future began. "Why did things get better for you Mali?", you may ask. Because I had a friend who had internet. 

I tried to achieve this look last month, but I failed big time! Bleaching my hair is NOT my thing!
I actually have to accept that I am a brunette!
Marilyn Monroe photographed by André de Dienes in 1949.


Red is all you need


You only need a red lipstick. That is what I believe. It is a true winner! Why all the other shades? It gives me a confusion like no other. I love it when it`s simple. I never get out of bed and cake it on anyway. I eat cake..in bed...sometimes I get out of the bed. Okay, that is a whole different topic.
A 1951 Revlon ad.

We are creators


Even though I love the old classics I am all over the place. My energy is a hot mess. I actually feel that I am an explosion. I take every era in history and eras that have not been discovered yet (eras in the future) and blow them up at the same time, like fireworks. I hate negativity but kinda love the way
Andy Warhol captured...life in general. The way his mind operated. I get him. And I don`t truly get a lot of people. (And they don`t get me either, so we are even. And we are not supposed to get each other.) I do it the same way (without trying to copy. Very important that you never copy others!) Make people ask questions! When they don´t get it, you know you are doing something RIGHT! When people are asking questions about your existence, it`s even better. ("What is he/she doing with their life?") That`s the most popular question people ask me. "I create", is my answer most of the time. It depends on who you`re talking to. Not everybody can handle the truth. People then stare at me like I am some kind of freak. ("Are you NOT having a 9-5 kind of job?" and "Are you an alien?") But we came here to create a life for ourselves, so I guess I get it and you don`t. We are creators. And another saying that I love is: Haters hate, creators CREATE!

Here is a timeless piece of art: The electric chair by Andy Warhol. Negativity? Maybe! the truth about what is going on in society to this very day? YES! It is timeless. And make people ask questions like: Is this really a world we want to live in?
Andy Warhol – Electric Chair, set of Screenprints (1971)


I am not into perfection at all. Mali loves it when it is imperfectly PERFECT! Just the way she feels about herself. (Yes, I know I talk about myself as a third person.) 

Mali a few years ago. Photographed and edited by Mali, herself, while playing a character.
We are all characters in this movie that is playing. The movie called life.

Thank you for being a tourist passing through Mali`s Universe. Thank you for being a witness of all the stories going on inside my mind. Simultaneously! ;-)





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03 June 2018

Published June 03, 2018 by

I can now become a living MEME!



Although this was one of the most normal everyday videos I have made in my life, THINK TWICE when it comes to little ol` me! I always have a back-up plan, a weird and freaky reason why I do what I do, and this video was no exception. I am practicing my video editing skills so that I can...to all my family members and so-called friends surprise (they are really not friends because they are jealous!!!! Because they did not think of this idea before me!! )...I can now become a meme! Isn`t that COOL? Why are your faces so red?

I now make GIF`s. You should always become BETTER at what you are doing and seek new solutions. Stagnation is NOT my thing. The comfort zone is not my zone anymore. It used to be, but that`s NO LONGER the case! I have listened to like 50 self improvement audio books recently!

And I have learned so much!


The coin


Stagnation is the ENEMY! I always knew there was hope! I always knew there was light in the end of the tunnel. But that light used to be a train coming my way....UNTIL TODAY! Until this manifesting moment. My dream has come true. I can now become a living MEME! This is all I want! "WHY"?, you may ask. THIS-MAKES-ME-HAPPY! You should always do the things that make you happy. I don`t care that my mom keeps telling me that I am 35 years old. I am going to cash in on SOMETHING! And I am looking for that coin. I saw a coin yesterday on my evening run.
I did NOT pick it up. I was too busy running to get a flat belly, which is also one of my goals. 5 minutes later in the audio book "Think yourself rich" an old man said "Pick up every coin that you see. It means good luck! To be rich you have to think rich!" I just felt so disappointed in myself right there and then. That coin could have changed EVERYTHING! It was a sign from the universe. But it was a test. You are going to be tested before you see the results.


 

The results will come eventually.


 Goodnight! I will be busy creating and doing the things that I do every night....







Thank you for being a tourist passing through Mali`s Universe. Thank you for being a witness of all the stories going on inside my mind. Simultaneously! ;-)


- The Meme - 


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Okay, I will have to think about this....but I will be back!




There is a hidden message behind this weird and crazy blog post. I hope you see it. Act upon it! Today - even tonight, while you are chewing on that chicken leg, honey; "This is going to be my last one, because tomorrow I am going to become a Vegan! My body is not a graveyard!" Even tomorrow morning while you are standing in the shower. "I ain`t goin` to smoke today, in Jesus name!" (You may not have a Southern accent but this author is pretending to have one right now so you better bare with me.)


START TODAY! Live the life you were meant to live!


I am not going to be a MEME. This is my sense of humor. I look like a meme, THAT IS ENOUGH! I don`t even have to try; I am a living meme! I will be back blogging more frequently from now on.
I am trying to find the topics to blog/vlog about.




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Published June 03, 2018 by

I am trying to get back into blogging again...


What have I been up to? Well, not too much to be honest. I always have plans (In my own mind, my brain is filled with plans!) But HOW do I even start? WHERE do I start? I made a song that I am not finished producing, but here is a preview of it...



And I have been running. I tried to vlog my experience. Here I am editing the video...



I started to do Tarot readings...


 I was able to help someone who had a lot of questions about their life, and they told me that I was "Spot on"!



Thank you for being a tourist passing through Mali`s Universe. Thank you for being a witness of all the stories going on inside my mind. Simultaneously! ;-)










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